The Doctor + Companion by Episode | Nine + Rose - S1E1 - Rose
it is in this moment that we can see the first fracture in Dean appear. after everything he has done, John readily brushes him aside because of one mistake. a mistake he knows almost cost them Sam. Is it any wonder why he sold his soul to bring Sam back?
#his little face #not following john’s orders means getting sam killed #doing things for yourself means letting your family get hurt #it’s not allowed #*you* don’t matter #and this attitude still persists #that’s why he always gives in to sam to this day (via alaynestone)
#it’s not about dean loving sam more it’s about this #parentified child dean #it’s about feeling entirely responsible for another life that yours is forefeit and valued as meaningless #dean’s not allowed to want #he has to put sam’s life above his own always #sam is freaking like 30 years old or more?? by this point and dean still responds to ‘look after sammy its your job’. #entirely damaging experience that resulted in a lack of self worth #but lets simplify it to ‘well he obv loves sam more’#as if love is a healthy concept at all in this case #when it’s a relationship and dependency caused by abusive and harmful parenting (via worldturtling)
fun fact: when i get emotionally overwhelmed, i get the shakes really, really bad.
Night will fall and the dark will rise when a good man goes to war. Demons run but count the cost; the battle’s won but the child is lost. | requested by pottersir
just listen to me make whale noises about everything that’s ruinING MY LIFE: a small cockles compilation by anna